... i am what i am ...

It's 25th! the day that i have to sit for my last final paper... After the paper m going to catch a taxi to go directly to taman maju to get on the bus to KL directly...

Miss Sparkling aka Lovely & Smart Junior
want to express her cutest congratulations to her

Senior Muk Chas (Davuth)

for winning the First Runner Up in

Al-khawarizmi Programming Contest 09
A contest under ACM-ICPC (International Collegiate Programming Contest)

There are no gifts given, but if senior can bring back gifts to her, she would not mind a tiny bit and will accept it heartily. She also would not mind to join a supper party (treat by senior muk chas of course) later on tonight. Lastly, she wanna conveys her deepest pride for him, and one last sentence:

"TOLD YA!!! I told u u can do it! My wand did work! :D "

in case i have been busy and do not have time to update again, here are my plans:

It is a bit packed, i think. But nvm... too much free time is also not good for me. It makes me feel bored. However... hope I dont feel too tired or get sick or anything. Can't wait for the last two papers to finish... aiya... :( so damn lazy right now. UTP is getting quieter and quieter since half of the students are alr back by now. JEALOUS!!! m still have 2 more papers to sit for...

nothing new to say beside that today i've been attacked by fever, followed by headache. Full day could not do anything. Last night wanted to finished reading for CO finals before proceeding to practice exercises, but then suddenly after taking bath I felt terribly cold, then hot. My eyes and face were burning, and yeah... couldn't do anything beside taking medicine and going to sleep. Sleep was not that good either. Woke up at around 8am to receive a call from home, then sleep back and couldn't get up at all until 4pm. I thought I was well already by then, but guess what, after lunch i started to feel super heavy in the head, i thought i wanna relax a bit by watching a cartoon. All right, by the time the cartoon finished my head was about to explode. I took medicine again and went to sleep - coz cannot focus... And now it's 9:46pm: i just get up and haven't had dinner yet. Now feel better though....

damn it... i've wasted one full day because of it...

I dont think it's weird to suddenly miss old friends right? I've been away from them for a while... so it's normal to suddenly think of them - browse through old photos - and then start to miss them so much. It maybe not weird for others, but for me it's a little bit weird - because I never actually miss ppl that much. U can say I have no heart (which is partly true) coz I rarely miss ppl. I miss the fish, I miss the food, I miss my hobbies, but ppl? hmm... guess not really.

It's funny that in all the pics that u're going to see - it looks really happy. We were happy. But if u look at the real status now, some of us don't even talk to each other. Some turned out to be enemies, some are too shy to meet each other, some are still willing to be friends but are not in contact... there are so many categories, and yet so much fun back then.

Bon Pka Toul Tum Poung High School (at Grade 12 i think)
the left one is a girl, not a guy :D

my most usual gang

another one

First Christmas Party in 2005 @ Bopha's house
Haha.... everybody looks so different from now - there are funnier pics but i dare not post. Afraid i cannot live peacefully when they see what i post... haha

Christmas Party 2006, same place

In Group - after dancing session

My Gang of 8
Four girls + Four guys
Lotta things happen... Miss u all...

The whole gang - pending for food

Christmas Party 2007 @ Phors' house
so bad i lost this collection


Mliss's bro's wedding party @ Chenla... all the ladies

Random trip to Kompung cham... this on the way

Can't imagine we went into the woods all by ourselves...
silly when we think back - teenagers are hot blood like this

This is not so long ago... Around Christmas last year i think.
No Christmas Party - but got wedding party to join.

didn't get to take many pics...

Outstanding Student 2007
the champions (is it the right word??? :( )

with some of us who still can force a smile

this is at Phnom Sompov, if m not mistaken

one more

ppl never let us take a single shot alone. they'd flooding in like hell... =)

All the ppl on our bus

TTP's ladies to join the competition

my farewell party @ my house

hmm.... this one since 11th grade i think.
not my close friends, but they are friends all the same. Was fun.

My 18th bday @ Soul

I'm feeling confused right now. I dunno whether m happy or sad... I feel happy because I have all the things that i would ever wish for, but somehow i am not happy because i can see that some people around me are not happy enough and I dunno how to improve that situation. I dont know how to be truly happy when i see other ppl (not everyone in the world of course - m talking about someone) are somehow suffering.

I never actually ask anything from u. But if there is one thing i can ask for, I will ask u to be happy and keep smiling. This is a huge thing to ask, since i know that u also want to be happy but it's just almost close to impossible... i know. Honestly, i dunno how to describe my feeling - it's just so hard to find any words or sentences to tell u exactly what i am thinking. Sometimes m reasonable, sometimes m not, and sometimes i dont even know what m doing - but all the same: i never want to see u sad. Plz forgive me for everything that i have done.... and plz plz plz... try to cheer up....

Dunno whats wrong with my head this afternoon. The paper was not difficult, and I knew how to do it. But I couldnot remember the syntax even the very basic ones that I have always used :( silly right? I feel my brain was not functioning - nothing came into my head and yeah... I screwed another paper... Instead of writing codes, I wrote essays... coz lecturer had mentioned that if we dont remember the code, we can use write the algorithm or any ideas that we have - it might help. Even the tracing code I kept getting confused and seems not focused at all.... Finally, I finished everything and even got some time left but I'm not satisfied with it at all. I dont fuss about the mark, I know that I won't fail. But what made me feel super annoying with myself is that WHAT THE HELL WAS WRONG WITH ME??? even about one hour after the exam my head was still blank and i really wanted push my head against the wall...

I know that I'm not a good programmer, but I never thought I'm this forgetful. I did make sure that I remember everything before I sit for the paper - and I really really have no idea how come it turned out this way.... Programming is just not my thing - I guess....

Lets forget it. Bahasa on thursday - keep cool!!!